Turn on your light shining vacancy...

But I'll pray for you I hope you pray for me...

This is my new theme song. This man gets inside my head like nothing else. I lived it live. I know the man. I need the music.

I know you'll be alright in the ocean of my mind...

I have a serious addiction. Sometimes it scares me. I can't listen the way I want to...need to...used to. Why does it take me weeks even months to get over these things?? The intensity is too much for me. I need to feel like I did then all the time. Its like freaking CRACK for me!!! I can't get enough. I need another fix. Its all I can do not to just leave and follow these people forever...worldwide.

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Enough on that now I guess. I need to listen and not think about what it does to me.

So...I'm off to Chicago again this weekend. I wasn't planning to go back for a few weeks. Richard is having a holiday party and there will be people there that I haven't seen in 2 years. Helen and Adam will be there, so I think it will be okay. Hopefully Tim and Jason will be there too. I miss Tim...we have a connection...he saw the wonderful man's music with me. Got me too trashed beforehand though...I was a drunken mess. But it was good.

I'm stopping now. This whole breaking into stream of conciousness jive in the middle of formerly coherent sentences is driving me nuts.

'sweep me off this floor with the devil's broom'

So when I moved here, I knew I'd be able to get out and do a lot more than I had in Bflo just because I would actually have friends here. I never thought I'd be getting out this much though!

Since August, I have only spent 4 weekends in Milwaukee. Almost all of them have been spent in Chicago. Its been wonderful...but I know I'm not going to know what to do with myself when the weather gets too bad to travel much.

I've been going on all out concert binges. Here is a list of the bands I have seen since October:

Rufus Wainwright

Hothouse Flowers

Ellis Paul

Joseph Arthur...twice

Don Conocenti

Jesse Malin

Joan Wasser

And numerous local bar bands and opening acts.

I suppose the list doesn't look as long as I feel it is...its just that all of these shows were just so intense and emotional.